Wednesday, May 2, 2012
About to Pop from the Pressure
Three things have happened to me in the past month.
1. Hubs got hired at the Department of Corrections. (yes... Cop. Yikes!)
2. False pregnancy alarm, so all that junk I ate was me just being a pig instead of a bun in the oven. Sigh...
3. Received 3 R&R's for How to Date a Nerd.
I'm going to freak out about number 3 today, but know the other two contribute to my wacko emotions.
If anybody has received an R&R, I feel for you. At first, it's sort of overwhelming to get an email from an agent you have to scroll down a couple times to read it all. And it's a great feeling to hear an agent give you their honest thoughts about what worked, what didn't, and why they are hesitant to offer.
And then comes the freak out. What if I can't do it? What if I disappoint them again? How do I deal with this pressure, and do all the work... only to be full out rejected?
(Bad Cassie for thinking negatively, I know)
I did two rewrites, and was super proud of the final product, ready to let all the agents know I've got a revision ready for them, then I got the third R&R. And that agent brought up stuff I kept the same in the rewrite.
*Bangs head on keyboard*
I couldn't even look at the book anymore. It was draining me, and I knew I wouldn't get the changes right if I tackled it so soon afterward. I took off three days (which doesn't seem long, but it is for me) to soak in the agent's suggestions, and if I really wanted to do another month or more of revisions.
Yup... I do. So here I am, rewriting for another agent and praying to the literary gods I get it right this time. Hoping I'm capable of pulling this off.